One in four.

Did you know one in four women will experience a miscarriage?

 

The loss of a child is something no one ever thinks about. Well, not until it’s too late. Had anyone told me I would lose both of my children before I was pregnant I wouldn’t have believed them. But it happened. And I had no idea what I was going to do. I was a newlywed when I got pregnant with my son. Everything in my life seemed perfect. Until I found out I was bleeding. two trips to the emergency room and then my baby boy was gone. I felt completely shattered. Everything was starting to fall apart. I became paranoid, confused, and full of rage. My husband (who was grieving in his own way) Couldn’t seem to understand why I couldn’t get out of bed for the next couple of weeks. We were living in a new town far away from both of our families. I felt completely alone. and when you are grieving the loss of your child that is the worst feeling. I couldnt understand why everyone looked at me like I was crazy for being upset. All I heard from everyone was “It happened for a reason” “You’re so young, just wait a while and try again” Those sayings only made my rage burn hotter.

And then to go through it all over again a year later. And to loose everything including my child. I just couldn’t handle it.

Getting back to my point. I felt like I had no one to help me thru such a difficult time. There were no support groups that i knew of. The therapist I was going to was a man with no children. So couldnt talk to him. Our children were “Too hard for him” to talk about with my husband. And family just didn’t know what to say. I had to work at it on my own. Granted I made quite a few mistakes. By no means do I have all the answers. Everyone has to find their own path when going down this hard, unbearable journey.

But I want anyone who is suffering from the loss of a child to know that you are not alone. There is someone you can talk to. I am here to listen, or give advice, or just be someone you can vent to. I will be an open book for you to learn from my mistakes so maybe your road wont be as hard. This is not something any women should have to deal with on their own help.

 

Anytime you feel like talking. Or have questions, or ANYTHING at all! Feel free to email me at    Angelmommy2304@gmail.com